Happy 1st Day of Summer!!!

Happy Friday everyone!!! Even better than that...Happy First day of Summer!!! 

Our summer is starting to fill up with concerts, baseball games, camping trips and attempting to catch all of

those epic summer movies. 

Tomorrow, the boys have plans to hit up a skate park (my husband and sons skateboard) and I'm getting my hair done...finally. We are starting off the summer right over here at the FHAF household!

I also have plans to go see Monsters University with my little monster :) Liam has been begging me to see it ever since they started running the trailers on the television. Every time the trailer comes on, Liam is screaming, "Mom, mom, mom, check out this!" :) 

On the food and fitness front I know that I want to run tonight, circuit train tomorrow and probably do some aerobics on Sunday. I also want to make some whole wheat banana and walnut pancakes on Sunday morning. I bought the flour last week and I've been itching to make something with it.

Those are my uneventful weekend plans. I'm actually looking forward to this weekend because we have nothing planned. Last weekend was super hectic and I'm ready to just have some down time.

Preschool Open House

My boy @ 6 months

 

Tonight we went to an open house for a preschool that we want our boy to go to. We got there a little early and the preschool teacher had not opened her classroom yet for the families to tour. There were a few other people just standing there and my husband bent down and picked our son up so that he could see through the windows. I was watching my son peering into that window and I could see that he was excited. When I saw his look of wonderment I felt my heart sink. It became so real to me that my son was no longer a baby and that he was really going to start school. AND that he was excited and ready for it. I walked in there knowing that it would be the best thing for my son, but ever since we left a few hours ago, I've been wanting to cry.

I feel like crying because the fact is that this will be my only baby. I will only do all these things once and once they are gone, I will never do them again. My husband and I have had many conversations about having another child but there are so many reasons as to why it's not a good idea. However, it doesn't stop me from wanting to do the baby process all over again. I would be soooo much better at it this time because I wouldn't be so neurotic and I would know exactly what to do. Sometimes it feels like such a pitty that I won't be able to apply the early mama skills I acquired with my first to my second child.

I count my blessings though. I have the best son. He is healthy, strong, has a wonderful sense of humor and makes me so happy everyday. I know preschool is just the beginning and I have years and years to enjoy my son, but it doesn't stop me from feeling sad about him growing up so fast.

If this is how I am with just a preschool tour, can you imagine what a blubbering idiot I will be at his high school graduation?