(Isn't that an original title for a blog post??? Eh? Now that is talent!)
I’m really frustrated. Over the past 5 weeks I've been losing
and gaining the same 3 pounds over and over again. I've tossed up my diet. I've tossed up my
workouts. I’m sort of feeling discouraged. I’m not giving up, but I’m thinking
that I might have to kill myself a little harder to get a little further. I’m
thinking that I might have to get ultra-regimental. Meaning timing my meals,
eating strange combinations of food to reach certain macros, drinking a ton of
protein shakes and eating a smaller variety of foods.
I hate doing that!
However, it’s all that works with my body. I love nutrition and
being able to manipulate meals to reach a certain goal, but I hate being
strict. It makes me bitchy and I hate being bitchy.
I have about 15-20lbs. to go. When I told my sister this
last week, she told me that she didn't see it. Then I told her I have a ton of
back fat. It’s like the lard just accumulates back there. It’s great because I
don’t really look at my back much, but it sucks because I know it’s still
there.
I would like to see all this weight gone by the end of the
summer. That way when my birthday rolls around I won’t feel like such a loser…lol.
No, I just like feeling good about myself on my birthday. It helps alleviate
the depression of getting a year older.
On another note, my brother came to visit on Saturday and it
was nice to see him after over a month. Sunday was really boring, but I got to
relax, read and work on some pictures I took of a friend’s wedding LAST
SEPTEMBER! Man, I lag big time.
I’m
reading a Sophie Kinsella novel called, “ I've Got Your Number.”
I bought it
like a million years ago (seriously, like over a year ago) when I thought that my
son was getting a little more independent, but I soon realized that I was
totally wrong about the independent thing…lol. It’s been on the back burner
ever since. Finally on Friday night I didn't feel like staring at a screen
(TV or computer) so I picked it back up and started it all over again. The thing
about books is that I read them too fast and then I’m left feeling sad because
the story is over. (One thing about me, I don’t deal well with endings. Even if
they are happy! I just hate when things end. You should have seen me when I
graduated from college. I cried like a baby!)
That’s about it for me. Like I said, it’s been boring being me lately. It’s because I’m saving money for my vacation so I don’t get to go out and do things because I can’t spend money right now. It’ll all be over in 40 days and I will be basking in the sun without a care in the world. Wait, I’m a mom, that doesn't happen anymore!!!
