It's Friday!

Thank goodness for the short week! It's nice that Friday rolled around so quickly.

Today was yet another hard day. Isn't it true that the hardest days after changing a habit are the third and fourth days? I think I heard that somewhere once, and today and yesterday, I surely lived it. I stopped at nothing and everything to get inspired today to keep at it. I read fitness blogs, I looked at old pictures of when I felt good about myself and I read success stories on My Fitness Pal. I also drew strength from knowing that soon enough this change will become a habit and every day that I work towards my goal is an extra drop in the bucket.

However, here is a list of things/thoughts that cross my mind and tried to deter me today:

• After work I went to CVS and passed by the candy isle. It's in the front by the registers and it has all kinds of candy. I saw a lot of chocolate and I caught myself thinking, "Oooh! I should get that!" However, I soldiered on and paid for my things and when I got back to my car, I ate the apple I hadn't had earlier like I should have.
• There was a cheese and cracker platter at work. I love cheese. I stayed away from the breakroom.
• I wanted to put parmesan on my meal tonight. This one is more out of habit. I know full well that the parmesan cheese doesn't do anything for my meal. I really can't taste it unless I eat it alone. This was just because I'm used to blanketing my entire meal in fluffy parmesan cheese.
• The Diet Cokes in the fridge. I was craving a cold one this afternoon on my lunch break. You might be wondering why I don't just have the diet coke because it has zero calories. Truth is, for me Diet Coke tastes better with cheese-its or goldfish. Another habit I developed...watching TV, drinking a diet coke and eating Goldfish.

Despite these thoughts...I kept on track!

And with that, today was another deficit of 510 calories. I did a shorter, less effortless workout than usual because my stepson came home today and we both used the Wii together.

I also made sure I drank plenty of water. I drank 96 ounces of water not including my morning coffee.

For the most part this is a mental thing. I'm having to break habits that I picked up over the last 3 years. Habits that tasted so good...hahaha!

I will persevere though. I want to look as good on the outside as I feel on the inside. I like me, and I want that to show on the outside as well. I want to feel proud of myself again.